It’s funny how when I sit down to write a post, I realize many things I have not been thinking about otherwise. I never complain about living in London as it was always a dream for me and it opened me so many doors I am just over the moon about. But sometimes there are things we would like to change. Like… living in London has its ups and downs of course. Rushing all the time is the one that gets a little on my nerves, for example. Living in London, I had learnt how to walk as fast as I can, even if I didn’t know how able I could be. At the same time, I really don’t want to do it. But it’s necessary to keep the life going over here. 

There is always something to do, there is always somewhere to go. Relaxing is not really on the agenda. Breathing slowly, meditating…??? It’s not that I don’t like to keep myself busy, of course I do. It’s just having some anxious-free time would really do a lot.

Having anxious moments is keeping me from enjoying the little things, sometimes. I am trying to overcome it, but it’s really hard. If you suffer from anxiety, you know what I am talking about. Even sharing it, it feels a little destructive for yourself. You don’t want to be the weak one, but in reality you are.

It’s just even after all this time I’m here (almost 7 years everybody), I still feel like I am drowning a little bit in all the chaos of a big city. It’s time for a break I know…

What do you hate most of living in a big city?

Dress: METISU (similar here)

Photos by theweirdycat

“I want to live by the ocean, but also in the forest, but also in the mountains, but also in a big city, but also in the countryside.”